Have you been broken many times you don’t
know if it is really in your nature that you were always left behind by the people
you love. You were broken, to the point that pieces of you were so shattered
that you thought you will never be whole again. Cause it hurts, you know, to be
broken then be whole then be broken again.. It was always the same story. What
hurts more is that when you became broken for another time, you are shattered
into smaller pieces than before making it more difficult for you to be whole again.
People will come into your life, you’ll treat them as special as you could,
show them how special they are to you then eventually they will treat you like
crap or an option, or a spare tire that they could get in case of need. Then
you became tired of feeling that way, and then, you almost gave up on love.
But it is funny how universe plays with you.
At the time that you are healing yourself and you aren’t even looking, someone
comes. No, they don’t come cause they were there with you all those times. You
just didn’t appreciate their presence before. Even that person doesn’t know how
much impact you will have on his life because you will not treat each other as
special. Then as time goes by, you two will be closer than before, you sharing
secrets and dreams with that person, and he does that too. You will share a cup
of coffee, share the same bed at group night outs, share happy moments and even
your frustrations… and eventually, you share your whole life to them, all of
those both of you are unaware.
Then each day, you look forward to see them,
and spend time with them and eventually, saying goodbye becomes difficult and
hard to say because you want them beside you all the time. But you say to
yourself, you are just close friends and that’s all you could ever be because that’s
what you both know. And it’s funny, other people see what’s going on between
the two of you, that you both act more than friends and it’s just the two of
you who were unaware of such because both you became close minded to the idea
that you were just friends.
And then you realize you are not feeling the
hurt anymore. Maybe it is still there, but you are more focused on the
happiness your special friend gives you. You know you are still broken but for
some reason you don’t seem to care at all until one day you seem to wake up
with just a smile in your face. And all will change….all will change cause you
realize, all along, both of you are just not recognizing that you are inlove
with each other.
Finally, all will make sense. You will get
the reason why he became a good friend all along and why he didn’t rush things…
cause he cares so much about you and fears that the solid foundation you’ve
both established will fall into pieces once he told you his feelings.. You will
be able to connect the dots and you will be able to see the whole picture that
this guy is so afraid to lose you to the point he can give up his own intentions
just to keep you in his side. Is that what you want? A guy who is afraid to
lose you and will do just anything for you to stick around. Lucky you, because
you have a guy like him.
Then one monumental day, he will hold your
hand, your fingers intertwined and his love for you will radiate and you will
feel his happiness and his urge to never let you go. Because he holds your hand
with much grip you can literally feel his love for you. When you thought no one
can surpass the happiness you’re feeling, he will hug you. You will receive a
hug that will send shivers in your spine, butterflies in your stomach. You will
finally feel that you are loved, and yes you deserve to be happy. He will hug
you so tight and it doesn’t matter to you coz all you ever wanted was to be
hugged that way. The hug that says “I will never let you go” and “I have you
and you have mine.” You will feel that all your broken pieces is slowly going
back together and it’s not the type of being whole that there are traces of
being broken. It’s like you are restored with no scars at all. Because you are
a new you.
And because of that, you will love him more
than you have ever loved anyone. You will love him like you’ve never been hurt,
trust him like you’ve never heard a lie and stay with him like you’ve never
experienced goodbye.
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